Wahhhhhhhh!!! I'm freaking out! I don't want it don't want it don'twantiiiiiiiittttt!!!! I seriously don't want to grow up it freaks me out something awful.....
Well to distract myself from it let me compile my birthday wishlist!

1) Money!! LOTS O" MONEY!!!!

2) Hello Kitty Toaster

3) Nightmare Before Christmas Bento Set

4) 4-in-one printer

5) A SuperBuzzy or RepotDepot Fabrics giftcard

6) A Sephora or M.A.C. cosmetics giftcard

7) Hello Kitty DVD player

8) More Money!

Oh I am a complicated thing. I fall in love so often so much, with almost anything. I fall in love with dresses, music, and people. For example you come into my work, you smile at me and maybe make a joke, and then you leave me. I'm actually heartbroken, I actually feel sadness when you go. But.... once you have me I, I ignore you, I make fun of you, I mock you, I don't trust you. I enjoy coveting things more than I enjoy owning them. *sigh* I frustrate myself. If I were with me I'd have ripped my own hair out by now... but people still love me somehow. And love me deeply.... There's a love eating monster inside of me, it growls and grows and waits, when it comes upon something desirable it tears it apart and demands more. I am nothing but its slave.
Things I love this week:

Kaya


Moi Meme Moitie clothes

Antique Beast

Off White Skull and Crown Fabric ~> http://www.reprodepot.com/bncrnng.html
Silver and Black Spider and Cross Fabric ~> http://www.reprodepot.com/spdcrbs.html

Yami Yori Kurai Doukoku no Acapella to Bara Yori Akai Jo" by D

Lee Pace
Robert Paterson
Doc Hammer
James Urbanik
Fu'ad Ait Aattou   

Project Runway

"Twilight" by Stephanie Meyer (go out, get yourself a copy and get ready for the next Harry Potter phenom)

Writing the so called "Untitled Gothic Project Ver 2 of 3". Its really focusing on such a script when I haven't finished all the characters, so its a story of nothing but everything that I have written so far.

Vampires.... vampire fiction, vampire art, inventing vampire habits (mating habits, food, sleep patterns) .

Being a better lolita.

Paychecks!

Wah so muc hhas been going on lately! Where to start..... where to start?
Alright so I got my first BRAND dress and it is the most gorge thing I've ever held in my hands ever and every where I go I spill things on it and I'm afraid to take it out and get sweaty in it but I've already worn it like five times.
Feast your eyes on my BRAND!

Ignore the scary Finnish  man in the back......
The first time I wore it was to the Gay Pride Parade in Austin and people thought I was like "austiny and what not" cause I got all these 'OMG  your so cute!" instead of the "wtf are you wearing bitch" expressions I get. It was fun. There were trannies and firewomen and condoms and bears in leather and gay dogs it was totally gay and gay and fabulous and we had a spot in the front and we got beads and condoms thrown at us.
Then we (Jenn and myself) got free tickets to see Love, Janis (thanks Nadia!) and it AMAZING! I love Janis Joplin and the women performing were like belting that shit out like it was the 1960's all over again. I was singing, crying, and clapping reliving my hippie days, and not shaving it was a blast.
MOVIE REVIEW!
The Hulk
Acting = B+ (Liv Tyler is awful, but Edward Norton is sex)
Graphics = A (VEINS!)
Writing = We're not talking "No Country for Old Men" here but not bad B+
BONUS : Mr. Stark makes a cameo, you know what that means kiddies..... AVENGEEEEEEEEERRRRRRSSSSS!!!!!!!!! All right.

The Happening....... lets not talk about it..... not the best not that worst thats all I'll say. I stand behind mr Shamallanananaknadjalkdan
PS: Zooey Daschunel you suck.

And we had the first lolita meeting and it was EPIC! We got together and saw the Austin Symphony give a live performance outside and we were the fanciest M******F******* out there. We then went out to La Madaline's and freaked out more normal people. We are already planning a tea party, archery and shopping trips. Yeah austin Lolis! I better get more outfits......
Wooooo well I think thats it...... Alot of stuff in the last two weeks but you know how life is. What-evs I love being busy

Soooooo I have a job now! Yeshhhhh and hopefully I'll be keeping it for a while! Come on not getting fired! I'm waiting until next week when I can get a paycheck, I've been working for three weeks without pay...... But I have some plans for that money! Like it all going into the bank! If my bank account it would look like Nicole Richie, or Cate Moss or Keira Knightly you know anorexic and angry and on drugs. But that will be over soon *strokes growling bank account* shhh shhhh my darling.
Anywho! I recently made the last payment on my first lolita dress. YESH! http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/jumper/132220.html In pink and red...... even though the pink and black is more my style or even the red and black.... ah damn.... maybe I can exchange the dress with someone else on egl. But I think I can put some stank on it, you know funk.... Cierra's funk. Ehhhh or maybe not so much of my funk.....
Okay well, I better get to bed I have to work at about 9 tommorrow (today) morning. It's almost the weekend! Yatta!

Did I ever say that I'm horrible at naming things..... and I'm a writer too!
Okay so here's the deal.
I was walking home from the Ritz, a theater in downtown Austin where I went to the Morrisey sing along (which was so frickan AWESOME) and I ran into this homeless dude. Austin has more than its fair share of homeless people and they are the most indignant and obnoxious homeless people too. Its like dude, I don't owe you anything don't act like i do! Anywho, this guy is just hanging out with some people who are banging on buckets and he comes at me saying "the smiths are awesome, NOW GIVE ME SOME MONEY!" I'm like WTF!?!? and I say no. So the guy yells back "the smiths are just a band!"


Screw you.


Whats up with this? So what? The smiths are just a band, but that doesn't mean that they can't mean anything to me. Now why does this bother me so much? Because it carries over to almost everything in my life. The Smiths are just a band, lolita is just a fashion, Amelie is just a movie..... yes but these things have impacted my life in such a profound way. Is there something wrong with that? I have taken things and given them significance in my life that is not bad..... living a life where nothing is important to you, not music or art or culture thats bad. I mean lolita is just a fashion, but I bet there's something in your life that you've given particular significance to. Like its just a blanket.... but its the blanket your grandma gave you as a baby so to you thats important. Now are you a loser? Maybe but there's nothing wrong with that blanket being more than just a blanket to you. I think thats where this country is moving, nothing is significant anymore everything is throw away and replaceable...... Not with me. The Smiths maybe just a  band but you are just an asshole..... and your frickan homeless too! So suck it!

Yeah and to anyone who uses egl shopping comm..... don't buy from TRANCEGEMINI she will tell you lies and cheat you.

 Golden Week is a biyearly thing that UT does to celebrate..... japanese stuff. The Japanese association puts it on and this is my first year going to it.

This is the outfit I wore. Handmade skirt and headband and hoodie stolen from a friend.

Two lolis I met! mrduckyduck
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Tim's smile.... this is the best you're gonna get....

Paula! I rub you Paula I rub yoooouu!!!

Dizzy showing her kawaii spirit!

My friend Tai in his kigurumi hotness! And a girl looking at my outfit with "WTF?!?!" written all over her face.

M. enjoying the sights and sounds of Golden Week..... right? No? He loves it.

And this is the Harujuku street fashion hotness! I am a giant among lolitas!

It was fun and I had some bomb ass yakisoba and met some gays!

Bonus!

This is from the After Party in M's room! Look at him trying to be cool! XD

So letsee its that time of year again when I have to take my finals and stress the frick out because I'm sure I've failed all of my classes. I don't like tests really.... I'd rather just do projects and participate in discussions and DO stuff... which is not what American educational starndards are based on at all I know but I still wish it were.
Hey! Dyou know the Sanrio store at the Highland Mall is shutting down????? What am I gonna do now?!?!  Buy everthing I can before it closes? You betcha!

WAHHH! I have to find a better place to put this computer..... I can't feel my behind.... :<
Anyway look at this video! Techtonic is the hottest shit in France and Germany. Its a mix between breakdancing and raving so.... its totally hot for white guys right now. I kid! I kid!



Ahhhh!!! I want my tax return!!! I want more monies!!!! *eats a fist full of pennies*

Let me show you want I want to do with that money......
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5631.htm?tab=skirts_pants&page=1
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5591.htm?tab=skirts_pants&page=1
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5391.htm?tab=skirts_pants&page=2
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5657.htm?tab=dresses&page=1
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5619.htm?tab=dresses&page=1
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5467.htm?tab=dresses&page=3
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5580.htm?tab=dresses&page=2
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5664.htm?tab=tops_vests&page=1
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5322.htm?tab=tops_vests&page=4
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5186.htm?tab=tops_vests&page=4
http://www.mccallpattern.com/item/M5525.htm?tab=jackets_coats&page=1
http://www.reprodepot.com/awcswh.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/ktmsvbk.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/pshpdbk.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/spdcrpg.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/cndllbp.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/cndllwh.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/fftpkbk.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/hthtbp.html
http://www.reprodepot.com/bncrnng.html

This is more for my memory than for you....
Oh! But here's something for all the people who love me
My dream dresses!
http://www.jp-stores.com/welt/shop/we60157/goods.cgi?act=goods_view&shop_id=we60157&goods_id=2934&cn=1&p=
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/en/en_shopping/menu/e_pirates/103P205.html
in black chea!

OMG! I'm here! Its my first entry and let me tell you it's a long time coming. I've been lurking and such for like, 2 months now. So I've finally taken the time to set one up. I've got internet a.d.d. so its hard for me to sit and actually fill something out at one time so it took alot of inner strength to put this together in one night.
So this will be a place of dialogue, maybe some short stories, whats going on in my life, my fashions, my weight loss, my looooovvvveeeee life and such.
I've filed my taxes and I've got really big plans for my tax return! Burando here I come!!!! Ok alright.... I have to go to sleep now. Goodnight trannies!